Stronger

The director of Bre's school told me to listen to this song...she was sure that I could properly apply it to life right about now...the words fit properly into place...

You know the bed feels warmer,
Sleeping here alone,
You know I dream in color,
And do the things I want.
You think you got the best of me
Think you had the last laugh
Bet you think that everything good is gone.
Think you left me broken down
Think that i'd come running back
Baby you don't know me, cause you're dead wrong.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean i'm over cause you're gone
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me myself and i
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger,
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean i'm lonely when i'm alone
You heard that I was starting over with someone new,
They told you I was moving on, over you,
You didn't think that I'd come back, i'd come back swinging
You try to break me but you see

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
[- From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/k/kelly-clarkson-lyrics/stronger-lyrics.html -]
stand a little taller
doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause your gone.
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
Thanks to you I got a new thing started
Thanks to you I'm not the broken hearted
Thanks to you I'm finally thinking 'bout me
You know in the end the day I left was just my beginning..... in the end...
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone
What doesn't kill you makes a fighter
Footsteps even lighter
Doesn't mean I'm over cause you're gone.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stronger
Just me, Myself and I
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
Stand a little taller
Doesn't mean I'm lonely when I'm alone.
I'm not alone

This Stinks!

Ok, it has truly been awhile since I have been this sick! This makes absolutely no sense!

It started about 2 weeks ago I guess, Bre caught the wonderful Pink Eye, and on top of that had a few cold symptoms.

Well about 2 days after I took her in, my symptoms began to come and visit as well as mom and then dad! None of us (mom, dad or myself) got Pink Eye, but we got horrible colds.

Last Friday, was my absolute worst. By the end of the night I looked like I had a run in with Ike Turner, bloody nose, swollen face, etc. Next morning I made an appointment in urgent care which is when I discovered I had my first ever sinus infection. Not the business. So I walked away with 4 prescriptions...Amoxicillan (Antibiotics), Prednisone (steroids), an inhaler and eye freakin drops! Not cool...

Since then I have had okay days, but at night its the pits. No sleep. Cough attacks that would last about 2 hours...by the time I get good sleep has typically be running between the hours of 3-5am...then of course the alarm is about to buzz. So yeah, I am slightly irritated. Bre WAS getting better BUT since the 3 of us were sick...she is now sick again and its back with a vengeance on my little princess. She has missed school again this week..and you know a sista still has to pay tuition whether she is there or not...argh!

Anyhow, pray for our health and that we all get better. This is NOT the business!!!!

Here & There

This week was a straight emotional week for a sista..

Had mediation again on Monday in court and that is never the business. But hey, I went in like a soldier and got it done. It was extremely awkward, but hey...it is what it is. I honestly cannot wait till all of this is over.


I had a very short week at work due to me not being there Monday, then on Wednesday I had an all day training and then Friday was our regular 9/80 work schedule. Being in the office for only 2 days last week was not the business at all. Alot of folks may think its awesome, but I am one to always think of the consequences to actions. Not to mention, I am off on Monday due to the holiday! I have a feeling my voicemail is probably at its capacity, my email has exceeded its limit and mail will be rollin in thick like morning fog...but its all good. It will be another week and I will make the very best of it.


My week came to an end and I must say, it was a very nice ending. =) All good really does come to those who wait huh? I am really anticipating some awesome things happening in my future and I am anticipating to see what God has in store for me! Yeah buddy!!!


I cropped today with a few of my WhoGivesaScrap friends at the monthly crop in Chino. I hooked up with my ace, Alondra Ladison and we really got down and dirty...literally...DIRTY! Kinda grimy! But hey its all good! We have been indulging in an art journal and trying new things. We have been working with all different types of elements that have been stashed away for years!!! I mean paint, paint brushes, modge podge, stamps, and all kind of stuff! We really been showin ourselves out! Holla! Thanks to my scrapper girlfriends Robin, Alondra and Melissa for contributing to the inspiration received within the past 4 weeks...xoxo

Anyway...here are a few pics of what I been doin...





Other than that I will leave you with some photos that I have taken recently during the past few weekends...

Pictures below are me and Bre playing miniature golf with the Jennifer Priest and her lovely fam that I love to pieces!

Bre & Mommy

Bre & Matthew bein silly!

Ok...in between catching up on Basketball Wives, Big Brother & Jersey Shore, this post has taken me about an hour...lol..more pics to be uploaded soon!

{The Blues + Photo Shoot}

So....today was just one of those days. Sometimes they just pop the hell out of nowhere!
Today my back was killin me from my lovely cramps...just love them. So yeah wasn't in the best of moods today.

The pressures of being a single mommy really kinda got to me today..."X" out NOW if you don't want to hear me vent, because that's what I am about to do.
Reality hits me at different days of the week, different times of the hours, different weeks of the year etc. I didn't know I was going to have such an emotional evening...but reality is, I did.
Sometimes yall...it gets to me being supawoman AKA supamommy...BUT I realize at the same time, that there is no other way. It is what it is. Me any my best friend were talkin today and we were talkin about how tired each of us were, and considered havin a glass of wine to help her sleep better, and she suggested that I just call it a night when I get home. Well...I reminded her...not to feasible with a toddler. Once I leave my 10 hour daytime job, I come home to another full time job and that's being mommy.

After I got off, not only was it cold as hell outside, it was super duper windy...had to fight the strong winds, stop at the post office, and stop at the store so that I can provide dinner for my little one. Then lets not forget to pick her up from Grandmas. I try not to get too comfortable at moms house, cause its easy to do. Its like my second home, but you know there are just times that I kinda just want to get home.
Soon as I walk through the door, I get dinner started, I probably didn't even sit down until an hour and a half later...so I'm starting to get emotionally wound up cause a sista is really tired and still not feelin too hot..at all.

I got emotional because I have this 3 year old who is bursting with energy, still lovin all her Christmas gifts and wants to play with all her games and toys. I found myself snapping at her for no apparent reason. I feel bad, because everything I am goin through is not her fault, far from it. So it saddens me. As the night goes on, I find myself goin round and round in circles, making double work for myself, dropping stupid stuff, making unnecessary messes in the kitchen, etc. Then I suddenly realized I was having a slight breakdown. Not to mention....her dad is in the middle of my frustration as I may find myself back in court. I don't have time for all of this, I really don't but I will do what I need to do.

A dear friend of mine, checked on me which allowed me a shoulder to cry on. Sometimes I just gotta get it out...most of the time is not cool, cuz Bre don't like seeing her mommy down.
After a nice long hot shower and a calming down, me and Bre had a photo shoot.

These are the reasons I continue to walk with my head high...she is my reason for living....she makes me smile, I lover her so much.

This past weekend, Bre and Grandma made crafts..most parents out there with little ones know who Moose A. Moose and Zee are. Well here are a few pics of the project below:

These are actually "pillows" made out of felt. She is SOOO proud!!! And mommy is too!

Had to get this pic below so you can see a better pic of the dress..lol...one of her many costumes that came in a Treasure Chest from her grandparents...

Here is a picture of the collection she made...she also made a heart especially for mommy! Love it! Love! Love! Love!

Aww look at mommy and her beautiful heart!!! My baby girl made this!!!

Then there are a few pics me and Bre took playin around with the camera... =)

The mommy girl...

Me and the love of my life!

Love the way my Tiffany BLINGS!