Another Bittersweet Holiday...

is upon me...

It has been almost 1 1/2 year since my separation, this is the 2nd Christmas without what I am use to. I understand that it is reality of what I am facing but I do know that God is in my corner. I have had a VERY emotional day it seems like everytime I think of it, I get teary eyes...yes I am being a punk today. That's okay I am entitled.

Because her dad was coming to pick her up this morning I had to wake Bre up which she despises and is beyond GRUMPY when I do. So, she spend the morning pouting and whining and Lord knows I don't like whiny girls! So, time passed and he came around 10am to pick up my girl and whisked her away with his family, who I use to entertain at my home jointly with my family. I guess that was the past. The holidays just are not the same for me anymore, and again I am getting teary eyes.

Bare with me, I just gotta get this out I guess. I hear the fam about to rev up the Micheal Jackson game on the Wii...so i will join them in a minute. I'm hearing alot of "he he's" and "OW's!"...someone is havin difficulties putting the glove on...

BUT ANYWHO...

I picked my girl up and from my father in laws house and she was still knocked out cold. This is the result of her tryna fight sleep being nosy tryna wait for Santa last night. It is 5:13pm and she is barely waking up... So maybe now we can just start all over and I can show her all of her wonderful gifts that she was blessed with.

I am SO thankful to have a loving family that supports me and is their for me for every bump in my road..getting teary eyed again. I have been through soooo much this year and I am so anticipating a better year for next year. So much on my plate and sometimes I feel like its just piled too damn high at times. But I must keep in mind that my God is an awesome God and he knows the perfect time when I need to be carried. Lord I thank you for the most powerful strength that you give me to get up out of bed everyday, take care of my daughter, thank you for my job that I get to go to everyday to make life possible. Without You Father nothing is possible. Through YOU...ALL things are possible.

Whew...im exhaling. I am staying strong. I thank all of my family and friends for continuously being in my corner. Keep me lifted in prayer because sometimes, a sista just wants to break down.

Stay up...Merry Christmas...
More Merry Christmasy stuff in a later post, didn't wanna mix..water and oil don't mix. Lol..